hiya, omg i am excited but so nervous. Me and my partner have been together for three years and due to him having cf we aren't able to have a baby naturally, so we have to take the long, maybe complicated road of ivf. It's going to be such a rollercoaster, one of which i am so happy to ride on. We are going to see Prof Webb on monday, to disscuss all options and hopefully it will get the ball rolling! i am scared though... what if the tests come back to say that it's not possible? I have had a blood test and i am not a carrier of the cf gene, which is a good thing!
My beautifull fella is going to have to have his sperm tested, to see if he is producing anything, i feel sorry for him with the needles poking and prodding in his balls....but apparently it won't be that bad, he'll only be a bit sore and bruised!!!!! poor sod! then i have to inject round about three drugs in my stomach a day....lovely!!!! (And i'm terrified of needles)but it will all be worth it!
I just hope that it's going to happen, i don't wanna get my hopes up then have them dashed, a pessimistic is never disappointed!!!!!!!
I've yearned for a baby with my fella for about 2 years, but we wanted to make sure this is what we wanted, and be ready for a baby! so three years on we are finally taking the plunge and i can't wait!
i know its awful but i get so jellous when i see people pregnate, i want a swollen tummy, sleepless nights and pooy nappies! Some family members and friends have just had kids and i always have hold of them giving them cuddles and love looking after them...
But after they have gone home a dull ache comes back to me... i just want to have a bouncy giggling baby, i hate feeling this achy feeling, sometimes i resent seeing people who are expecting... i smile and say all the right things but just want to scream WHY CAN'T IT BE ME!!!!!!
Well hopefully it will be soon... i mean the treatment is going to take 2-4 years, but it will be so worth it and we have a great doctor and a social worker.
My fellas social worker ( she's fab, and works at the hospital where my fella has his treatment) has never been through a couple with one of them having cf trying ivf, so she's asked if she can be part of it, which is fab, help at every angle.
So i'm excited and nervous....excited that our dreams of a family might be able to come true....nervous that it might not happen. i'll keep you posted!!!!
xxxxxx
